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4th Day of Fast


I had a dream I took a pregnancy test for someone other than myself. When I took the test, I started hemorrhaging like crazy, chunks of blood all over. I was driving with a friend. I needed to get to a bathroom. we stopped at this public gas station  bathroom, the kind you run into on long distant road trips. There was a line of people waiting. I was hemorrhaging hard by this time, chunks of blood all over my clothes. My friend got inpatient and wanted to leave. I told her I wanted to stay, I needed the bathroom.
 Then I dreamt I was in this fancy blue and gold bathroom taking a shower. I was talking to my friend out of the country. I had a water proof cellphone device on speaker phone in the shower with me. She told me of how she slipped and fell and bumped her head the other night and laid unconscious for a hour before someone found her. All of a sudden a brownish, yellow thick substance pours out of my mouth and my throat and I rip it from my tongue.  It kept coming out, pouring out slow like brown glue. It's hard and clotty in some areas like glue gets right before it gets hard. My aunt knocked on the bathroom door because the kids need to use the bathroom. I ignored her at first as I continued to scrape this sticky goo from my mouth and tongue and the back of my throat. I saw it slowly go down the drain. I finally let her and and the kids in. They do not acknowledge me as the  goo keeps flowing out of my. They use the bathroom and totally ignore what is going on with me. They leave.  My mother sticks her head in the door and tells me to hurry up.  She is totally oblivious to what is going on with me.  I tell her I am sick. I lay on the floor in the middle of the bathroom in fetal position.  All I hear is running water. The shower is still on. 

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