Life is a constant balancing act and it is important that we embrace the darkest corners of our mind. This is where survival, awareness and alertness meet us. We must be accountable of how we live our lives. Do you ever get sad because you constantly have this unsettling, discontent feeling? It reminds me of that commercial with the childrens control group.. "We want more, we want more!" I wonder if I am the only person who feels there is something wrong with me because I am constantly striving to challenge myself to the next level.
What I have learned is that yearning is our natural creativity. Exploration is infinite. Growth is limitless. It's our universal "Christ" nature. We have everything we need within ourselves and somehow our human consciousness has forgotten. Being fulfilled is a memory that has been engraved into our psyche because we have experienced it already. It may be fragmented but it was always there. It is a feeling that we have already experienced. You can't crave something you never had.
The confusion is our human consciousness playing tricks on us, telling us what we are searching for is outside of ourselves. We live in a world of consumption. We are brainwashed to think worldly expectations is what dictates how "good enough" we really are. We then begin to validate ourselves with temporary ego driven band aids. Be aware of what you are striving for in life.
When we pray to change someone or something we are taking away from someones freedom of choice. Prayer should never be used to tell God what to do. God or the universe (whatever you want to call it) already knows what is happening. Pray for God to do his will. Be thankful and grateful for being alive. Pray for the strength to continuously forgive yourself and others for not being perfect. We can not pray to change someone or something because there is a plan for everyone and we can't get in the way of what God is trying to do. God will do his will anyway.
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